out of all the things i want in my life, i really just want to be free. free from fear and anxiety. free from self doubt and insecurity. free from ignorance and arrogance. from from inconsistency and laziness. free from being too judgmental and too intelligent. i just want to be free.
today, i thought to myself, my life is not as bad as it could be. i mean, it can definitely get a lot worst. this really struck me as the day progressed. i know that my current situation is not one that i want to be in, planned to be in, or have any interest in; however, god put me in this situation for a reason. i have to humble myself. i was racing through life, and in many ways i still am. so many times, i have sacrificed the ultimate goal for the small gain, for what reason i still am unsure.
when i sit down, and watch time, seriously pay attention to each detail of my life, i know that i can be better. i can get to the place that god has prepared for me. but, i have to take my time and really learn the lesson at hand. i am humbled by my current experience. it took longer than it probably could have, given my stubbornness to change in the ways i need to change because i know it all. funny thing is, i have the slightest clue.
i wrote down my position on my life right now at this very moment on a small piece of paper. i tore it up into tiny pieces, one by one throwing it out the window, forgive me for littering mrs. earth, announcing to myself one thing that irritated me about my life with each piece. by the time i was finish ripping the piece of paper a part into nothing, i realized that nothing i was frustrated about in my life was that serious, or that permanent.
everything in life, good and bad, is subject to change. the change must come from within and than be outward, but it must also be ongoing. change, like life, is a cycle. so, even when things appear to stop, life is still going, allowing you to do the inner growth needed to continue on with the motion. i am blessed to have really learned this lesson today. i only pray that i learn how to and actually do apply it to my life.
{living everyday with the best intentions}
today, i thought to myself, my life is not as bad as it could be. i mean, it can definitely get a lot worst. this really struck me as the day progressed. i know that my current situation is not one that i want to be in, planned to be in, or have any interest in; however, god put me in this situation for a reason. i have to humble myself. i was racing through life, and in many ways i still am. so many times, i have sacrificed the ultimate goal for the small gain, for what reason i still am unsure.
when i sit down, and watch time, seriously pay attention to each detail of my life, i know that i can be better. i can get to the place that god has prepared for me. but, i have to take my time and really learn the lesson at hand. i am humbled by my current experience. it took longer than it probably could have, given my stubbornness to change in the ways i need to change because i know it all. funny thing is, i have the slightest clue.
i wrote down my position on my life right now at this very moment on a small piece of paper. i tore it up into tiny pieces, one by one throwing it out the window, forgive me for littering mrs. earth, announcing to myself one thing that irritated me about my life with each piece. by the time i was finish ripping the piece of paper a part into nothing, i realized that nothing i was frustrated about in my life was that serious, or that permanent.
everything in life, good and bad, is subject to change. the change must come from within and than be outward, but it must also be ongoing. change, like life, is a cycle. so, even when things appear to stop, life is still going, allowing you to do the inner growth needed to continue on with the motion. i am blessed to have really learned this lesson today. i only pray that i learn how to and actually do apply it to my life.
{living everyday with the best intentions}
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